Mov’in On Up
Hi everyone….Lets, see….I’m pretty sure I saw a glimpse of the old me this weekend……and by the old me, I mean the “newer version of the old me”. I started making my comeback yesterday, when I actually planned out my food for the day and ate rather well. For a change.
For the past couple of weeks, I am sure you have noticed that I just have not been my usual “happy self”. I stopped what I would call “exercising”, although, I still got out for walks and kept as busy as possible. (My way of avoiding having to focus on all the things that have been bothering me). And, even though I haven’t been “overeating”, I’ve been either eating…whatever is handy, just to survive…if at all. Water was out, and diet soda was in. It’s all self-destructive behavior, but, I do realize that, and so yesterday, I made the effort, to make myself once again believe, that I do care…about me…and about my future. Although, it is hard, to break out of this, I am trying.
Thing is, when something upsetting happens in my life, it seems to be followed by more and more things leading me into a downward spiral. And as of right now, I’ve just about had all I can take. It’s always been my way to cope, by being quiet, withdrawn, and worst of all…such a hard task to make me smile, let alone laugh. So, I slowed down on blogging, because I couldn’t think of anything witty or inspiring to say, and didn’t want to bring anyone else down with me. So as, boring, and as negative as this blog may be….it is just me, trying to work my way up and out of this pit I’m in.
So Friday morning, I checked the scale, and it seems I have gained back 4 lbs, since my last weigh-in which was April 11. So, I guess it’s time I change the weight ticker to reflect my actual weight and own up to it. I know that I can do this, and I wish that I wouldn’t let things get to me, to the point where I feel as if I do not matter anymore.
I woke this morning with some goals for the day, which I hope I will be able to fulfill. I’m not asking much of myself today…I just want to accomplish the things I need to do, along with my usual routine. So as simply as I can, I am only asking these things of myself…
1. Drink only water today.
2. Keep cleaning; so I can donate loads of things to the LUPUS foundation, which is coming for a pick-up on May 16th, (I have an attic full of stuff to go through as well as the rest of the closets and drawers in the house.)
3. Plan & prepare healthy meals, and actually eat them.
But tomorrow, I have a different plan for my day…I will not drink coffee, and head straight to the computer. I am going to eat a some oatmeal, juice and get on my dusty stationary bike, and ride like the wind or at least until, I fall off. So that’s it. That’s me, trying to move on, and get passed all this crap.
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First of all…I learned a long time ago, you should ALWAYS blog, even when you don’t have anything inspiring to say. The thing is, our buddies are here to support us in almost everything. Sometimes I don’t want to blog for the same reason, but then one of my buddies emails me and says “GET YOUR BUTT BACK HERE!!” So, here’s me, telling you the same thing…we don’t have to have all sweetness and light, just come here and let us support you, even when you don’t feel wonderful or need to vent. This is part of what BuddySlim does. Not only do we celebrate one another’s successes, but we support one another through the rough times too.
Your goals for today sound fabulous and doable. Staying moving and on track will certainly help to get your head back together too. I’m crossing my fingers that things get better for you, and I’ll say a little prayer to the same effect. Take care of yourself and have a wonderful and healthy day. Know we’re here for you!! Hugs! Angie
It is awesome how you are getting yourself back on track. It is a hard thing to do but in a short time you will feel so much better. Have a great day.
Hey Flor girlie….your goals sound perfect for today. Little steps is the best way to do it. You;ve had a rough time of it lately, so just take it one hour at a time and at the end of the day feel proud of all that you’ve acomplished.
I have to agree with Angie and blaithin. First this site is not a popularity contest where you feel the need to be on your “best behavior.”
This is a life struggle. You are in the process of changing your physical, mental, spiritual make up. That is a colossal undertaking. It’s no wonder we all stumble a time or two. I’m in the early stages of weight loss so everything is roses and candle light at the moment. But I’m sure my time on Maple Drive is coming up.
Please feel free to vent, curse, throw things, and/or maim a Burger King or two.
We got here by living a lifestyle that isn’t conducive to healthy living. It’s going to take a lifestyle change to break free from this prison of flesh we all live in. This takes a lot of blood, sweat and tears. You didn’t get here overnight and you’re not going to be free of it overnight. Give yourself a break. Forgive and let go.
I plan on doing a lot of belly aching when I start having issues with my new lifestyle.
(((huggles)))
Great goals you can do it. I do know daily blogging has made a big difference for me, so keep it up!
we love you and know you can do this. and KUDOS for dragging yourself (even kicking and screaming) back on track. that will go a long way in helping you to feel better, too. this, too, shall pass. HUGS!
We love you, we love your goals, and I especially love the support that you give to me. Glad to see you are taking baby steps, in my opinion they work better than long jumps!
Thank you everyone…If I was given candle light and roses, believe me, i wouldn’t be here complaining the way I am. But, in the end it is an inspiration in itself that I have people who do really care about me and what I;m going through….thank you to all of you and yeam I love you all!
It’s incredible how much we’re in synch right now. I feel you entirely and I’m proud of both of us for continuing to work through the chaos, for continuing to TRY. We’re going to make it so long as we don’t give up and I don’t see us doing that anytime soon! I’m proud of you and you should be proud of you too!
Way to go…thanks for your blog. You are doing amazing and I love to read your blogs and get motivated!
Come on Flo you know we love you whether you are witty or gritty just hang in there and dont even think about giving up. We have come waaaaay too far. No coffee.. really OMG -Dee
Were we seperated at birth? my sista by anotha motha, I think.